In the past three months I have really felt like I am reliving my childhood. From my earliest memory until I was about 9 almost everything I did involved my "Kissy". All my family members reading this knows EXACTLY what I am talking about! I had a doll that I LOVED. I carried her around everywhere I went and her name was Kissy. All I wanted was to be a real live mother. To have a real live Kissy. I dressed her up, cuddled her, put her in my 'real' stroller and spent every waking moment thinking about my baby. When I had Ethan I never once remembered Kissy and the excitement she brought me. But oh boy! Having a girl changed that instantly! I absolutely LOVE to dress Lorali, do her hair, put in bows and bracelet's, anything girlie you can imagine. I do enjoy every minute as the mother of a boy but somehow this real live doll has brought out the 6 year old in me! And it has been SO FUN!
(this is where I WISH I knew how to insert music into my blog comes in.... my favorite song when I was 6 was 'When I grow up, I want to be a Mother' -- and even writing the words to the song will never do it justice -
When I grow up, I want to be a mother and have a family:
one little, two little, three little babies of my own.
Of all the jobs for me, I'll choose no other.
I'll have a family. . . .And I will love them all day long
and give them cookies and milk and yellow balloons,
And cuddle them when things go wrong,
and read them stories and sing them pretty tunes.(Janeen Brady, "I Want to Be a Mother," in Beloved Songs [1987], 10–13)
It fits my life right now to a tee! If you've EVER heard it you know what I mean!)
