I Love You Because...

For Me? For Them?

All this week I've tried to do fun little things for the kids while they've been out of school. Both to keep their excitement for the holiday contained and to prevent them from driving me crazy. It's working so far. Tomorrow we have a few projects planned for gifts for friends, yesterday they painted their own Nutcrackers and today we headed downtown to see The Best Christmas Pageant Ever.

It was adorable, the kids loved it and if you're looking for something fun to do with the kids before school starts up next year it's the perfect afternoon activity. On the drive home I realized something though. I loved it just as much as they did.... if not more. I loved being downtown, I loved exposing the kids to a little culture (well, culture for a 5 year old, right?) and I loved the play. I loved the chance to support the group putting it on and I LOVED the flashbacks... When I was 10 or 11 I went through a 'Theatre' stage. (no pun intended... okay maybe it was intentional. Anywhoo....) I was in about a dozen plays between the ages of 10 and 15 and I loved every single one of them. The little theatre that we had in our town was quaint and had a wonderful group of people running it who were always setting up children's plays. The community supported the shows and we were all grateful for a chance to put on the next one. Ohhh.... the memories. Okay, so maybe taking the kids to this was more for me then them but, we all loved it! 

My little sister Emily is the cute one, second on the front row with the huge hair bow and I'm one the top row of the angel choir, far right. 

Uncle Keith and Aunt Eileen.

Growing up my Grandparents on my Mom's side lived too far away to be an active part of our lives. It took over 24 hours to drive to their place so you can imagine that it was only every few years we'd have a chance to meet up. Even then for so long they lived such a different life style then us that it was foreign to just be around them. In fact it wasn't until I was a teenager that I felt like I had actually connected with them. While my Mom's parent's weren't a big part of my life I did have some amazing adopted Grandparents. Aunt Eileen and Uncle Keith were always involved in my life. They are my Mom's aunt and Uncle. Even though they lived in Idaho they rarely missed a birthday or baptism. They met every single one of my boyfriends, knew my grades, what I was struggling with and encouraged me to succeed. They supported me at grandparents day at school all through Elementary, all my recitals, my graduation and my wedding. On top of all the great memories, I always knew they loved me and I could go to them.  Aunt Eileen's latest projects, her soft hugs, and her way cute giggle. Uncle Keith's radio terms, his Ernest and Lampoon quotes, his subtle humor, him proud that I married a tall red-head and him leaving his pocket coins for us every time he visited. I think I still have most of them. The summer of 2004 I brought Ethan up to their house for a visit and was comforted that everything was the exact same as it always has been. The house, their decorations, their old movie collection and even their homemade jams. It was wonderful. Unfortunately, my kids will ever get those memories with them.

Last night Uncle Keith passed away. I know he lived a long wonderful life but I still feel upset over it. Like the axis of the universe has tilted and is askew somehow. He's been sick for years with everything you can imagine but I guess I always felt like he would always be there. I haven't seen them in 2 years and I was already missing them before this but now I just feel like a fool for not finding a way to see them in so long. I know it's too late but, I love you Uncle Keith.

 

SUPERMOM - Then and Now

Just found these in that treasure box I mentioned last week...  Made for my Mom 20+ years ago.... I still think all these great things about her... and more. Let's add to the list that she is my emotional anchor. She get's me through everything from Autism to Aging. We talk almost everyday and she is my best friend. She has managed to build and maintain an amazing relationship with my kids despite living so far from them their entire lives. I couldn't live without her. She's the best. 

Thanks for coming out this past week Mom. I needed that. I love you.